2005...here i run....(hehehe)

29th December 2004


like every year....at this particular turning point..
i just pause.... n look back....
last year i had fun listing all the turns n turbulance on 2003..
maybe cause i had One bside me 2share it wit
(aint that right eddy?...heheh)

but hell...
it'll still be fun to list it down...
(here we go...)

HIGHLITES OF *2004* FOR CURRY_N_CRAP

1) Turned 25 ! (uuuurgh!)- gosh i'm older....remembered dat day i was smilling n screaming at the same time...had good dinner wit LurveOnes n dearOnes....what a day what a day!....( " , )

2) P e r t h - gotta love that laidBack good for "pencenPeeps" place...always remember the seafood, chocBody cream (i know weird huh), freyaHanley(streetPoet..u rawk babe..thnx for the CD), those crazy t'shirts (cost me alot too...hehe) , and that ugLy tan i had after that.....congrats lurve on u're graduation..nanti bring kakNgah go again eh

2) V o te d -yep did that...first time in my life... even went to see what was bilik gerakan all about...had abalone to accompany...think i voted well (for a first timer...hehhe)

3) dented, demented, distorted-u name it! - ...everything my heart had to go thru...

-broken to bits
(wedding bells to u ...was a shock to me ...u should have said something.. n i would've let u go much earlier..)
-mended
(thnx for ure time myBoo..tho someones in u're eyes now..ull always b myBoo..
lalalalal..that song lingers in my head...)..

then it healed a bit...
only to b push down the stairs..of some dark alley where the door is locked..n the key is bein thrown away
(yeah yeah..me n my imagination)....
now its a bit dislocated....n i don't know or not sure how's it doing now.... kihkihkih

4) needle n nerve - health was a taker this year... number of times i had to go thru dat rollerCoaster unstable Blood thingi ..made me pink, yellow, purple, then yellow again....i remember there was even a point i almost lost it all...n thought i wouldn't see those ceilings again...or even feel the same ....
i went thru it all alone... i didn't want anyone see the fear i had on my face...or that depressed feeling that came with it.....n here i am....still alone (muahahah...cheezy i tell ya)....another year since i was last diagnosed huh..
yan..it gets harder and harder lar...

5) corea corea ! - sam...in u're honour!.....thnx for showin me u're corea (correct spellin for korea aah)....always remember this mom-Daughter (the best ma!...serious!) trip...i rawk the town.... bigTime...(n lost acces to my creditcards...hehe)...but it was simply a blast....FIFA stadium, brooch heaven, kimChi, AnyangHaseo , KamsaHamida (corean words i learnt along the way) fakeFakeSoFake designer goods (heheheh)....n good choc drinks (somehow found a good one there...)...sam was the photographer for our trip...nows he's my frend...( " , )...sure hell missYa..

6) nuFlavas- met quite a number of new faces this year...

* nottyBaby- u rawk my world baby...couldn't see that we can do so much...even if we are beds apart...(heheheheeh)...now u're after her...hey...that's kewl....nice knowin ya

* HornyMyth- u're gettin married dude...maybe u should just throw u're "to do " list...ait...hehe...but i found ya...i really did...didn't i...heheehe

*SmallD**k- hehe...weird how we met ...who would've thought..out of all the places..n out of all the people...i had to see u....u want one thing...n i can't give it to u honey....especially people like u....gdLuck ait.Cheers!

*SpinDoctors- never knew any doctor quite like u peeps...never knew i'd be loved this far...hehehe...just three nites together...n we just hit it off great...like sisters i never had...like frends i never want to leave..lurve u both....may we meet again in 2005


* mama'sBoi- geez...u're still a puzzle to me....still haven't figured ure moves n intentions...u do have a nice mom...n i reckon u're nice too...if i get to know u more... will i?

7) Along came myPast-alot of blast from the past frends headed my way this year too

* sukai n shelly - been a while kan...really good to seeYa peeps...i'm still the same curry...even if my grounds bit shaky....still the MystyMe....hehehe

*LongDistance Bliss-Educater 2B!! u're alwaiz dat one buddy every gurl should huv...we startedOff the same path...but now u're headin another..n i wish u all the best n hope u'll find what u're lookin for... welcome to my sector...n if ever along the way...u see clouds n doubts ahead...when nothing just don't make sense....close u're eyes n look behind...u''ll find me there...nowhereElse but just there....(takeCare aaah)

* LostPoet - surprise! surprise !...u're a real blast from the past dude...n really blast me away..(if u know what i mean...kikihkihkihkih)...here's to a goodstart ahead of us ait...no matter where we'd be hangin (or headin) . ( " , ) . Longing for u're strings *wink*

* Noodles- out of the bushes i guess...thats where i found u again....kihkihihkih...noodZzz!...u're one of a kind...n u're my kind...huvbeen n will always cover u're ass when it comes to u're parents (when r u comin out of that shell anyway..still keepin shafs abreast?)...
u came back at the time i needed a familiar face the most...u came back when i don't think i needed to Lookback.... u were so right about him n that game he played....u came...n u were there.....n u made me come nearer.. n under this stromyRain...i wish u were here

All my lurveN Luck on u're newBorn place....drop by anytime..these doors are always open...(muaaaahs)

8) bangi bangi here i come- i must be the most luckiest daughter in this universe..n other alien universe out there!!!!...just when i thought u gave it all abah...theres always a lilMore from u...
(n i was so lookinForward in to movin in wit my budds....but hell...this is much better!!!....heheh) ...
u wont b readin this..but i will make sure u know that Ure the first man i've ever been in love since as long as i could remember...
many men(boyz, jerks, dudes..whatever u call it...hehehe) will come my way abah...but noOne can take u're special palace in my BigFatHeart...
i am u're shadow...n i feell u everytime i'm deep or shallow..
when close or below....when i'm hip or sorrow....either in bangi or buloh......( " , ).
fingers crossed on u're xtension...LurveYa

9) Cover Gurl- this year was also the year i did alot of coverin....be it in the office....or at leisure....some coverin cost me almost my life (hehehehe...sha punya pasal lar nie)...while others....i get paid to do so....(heheheh..orng melayu kate tanggung kerja....aaaaah)...it was the time i had to kick myAss a liltle bit more...a little bit harder....n stand on my 2feet just alilBit longer....
like all times....i remembered those nites i just threw myself in n cried n cried...n cried.... till i forgot the main reason why i cried in the first place..part of it was of my medication...but most of it was because i felt i couldn't breath well...i couldnt look clearly...i couldn't even getUp....
n so i dream....Longing for a better time..hoping that its just around the corner...n that kept me walking the xtra mile....taking that liltle hope...as i wipedOff theOld mascara...only so...to brushOn a new one.....

10) Events, Casualties, n EverAfter - lets not forget news, brews n chews of things that happend around me.....

*SisLong is xpecting-
i'm gonna b an aunt...wehhho...auntCurry ( **,)...
uve come along way from where u r now...ive seen u fall, cry n weep for the tragedy before the joy...
but joy is as joy it is..n its here...insyallah...

*sideBells ringin-
bestestBud any sriAman gurl could have...is settlinDown ...
like i said babe...u're eppyness has arrived n its here n alive...n with all our berkat n doa...may it become infinite n everAfter...amin
words of finale episode of sex n the city _
"...last nite i had a thought...what if i have never have met u? ..."
(uwa..!..sad..sad...! when is my MR BIGG comin n swift me back home.....hihihihihi)

*innocentBeauty leavin the sector?-
i remembered this time so well...i was torn between tellin her to realise her longLived Dream...or b selfish n tell her to stay....just stay.. only cause she's myStrength myWill n MyEpitome to what i standTo today..apart of me is eppy with the offer she got n all the adventure that s gonna come wit it....but it would've really made my life...if she could just stay..n njoy this adventure..together....
n u know what....
SHE DID!...n she's still here...n i'll bring her to 2005...i'll have her another year...as we both gaze at our adventures ahead...
Cheers babe!
SpicyCheers all year round *wink*

* StringsToFindingPeace-
gotta lurve that nite....in my hideAway...wit the poet here to play...n some strings to say....as i lay to you....n u play u're woo...
things to make me ease...strings to finding peace.....strings to say the least...

*tsunami disaster-
life is nuthin but learning....n u're a lesson wellLearnt...
it made our eyes open wider, ears listen further n hearts open warmer...
n it proved that out of all the diferrences we r......
in one way or another....in a good way or whatever....
we r connected.....
no matter which shores we belong to...

mmmm..what a listing...(hehehehe)...

so as i sign off on the last day of 2004.

i look back....n figure...
hey..its not so bad...its not so ugly...n definiteLy not as LoneLy...

so to all
i bid u hello n goodBye
i bid u luck n b unstuck
i wish u well n swell

as i wonder ....
should i run
or just stay to ponder...

(heheheheh)

curry_n_crap

31 th December 2004